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room lay open and bare, already empty of the
time she had spent there. Emily sat back on
her heels in the middle of the cool, polished
wood floor, searching for a glimpse of the
home the room had become to her in her last
two years of university. All that met her
gaze was a motley collection of cardboard
boxes, salvaged from the local corner shop
and now full of her own bits and pieces, carefully
retained in memory of their finding, like
seashells or a bag full of rounded pebbles,
precious as the coinage of memory, paying
the toll to recall again times that somehow
slipped sideways out of view, pressed by present
pinching immediacies.
Sighing,
she rolled the last of her posters up and
slipped a rubber-band over the tight cylinder,
adding it to the pile of boxes before her.
A sharp angry buzz of the doorbell announced
the arrival of the removal men who would carry
all traces of her life there away, over the
ocean to her home. She laughed softly to herself,
realizing she was indulging in wistful melancholy,
imagining these same men, surely cogs in a
giant machine which picked up and deposited
thousands of peoples' lives all over the world,
as making that journey themselves. And, when
she opened the door, they did not seem like
men that would venture beyond the city zone
of orange light, trailing car lights, the
constant blip, whirr and whoop of the sirens
of the different emergency services, criss-crossing
each others' paths in a weave of anxiety and
response.
Two
men stood in the doorway.
“Alright,
pal”, the shorter greeted her in a high, nasal
voice, flashing a smile, the black gap where
a tooth should have been taking her by surprise,
and she smiled uncertainly back.
“This
it all?” he continued as she let them in.
She
nodded, smiling, and they got to work, scooping
the boxes up with an ease that surprised her,
for they were both thin and scrawny, their
arms stretching from the wide sleeves of their
football jerseys like the raw branches of
young trees.
The
room cleared rapidly, until she was left with
only a small rucksack and her shoulder-bag
and coat heaped on the stripped bed. Outside,
the cherry red removal van sprang to life
with a comfortable put-put sound. Davy, the
second removal man appeared at the door. His
eyes, behind their glasses were solemn and
rounded as he handed her her receipt. But
as she signed, he suddenly came to life.
“Going
back home then?” he remarked.
“Yes,
I'm finished uni now”, she handed back the
clipboard and his pen. “But you'll be travelling
again soon,” he nodded at her, and gave a
knowing wink.
She
looked back at him, puzzled.
“Joining
the company, I suppose,” he continued, making
for the stairs as a horn honked impatiently
from the street, “I thought so, the minute
I saw the name. I'll bet that's the company
I said to Madge – the wee wifey,” he added,
misinterpreting her confused expression.
“And
you are the spitting image of him – well,
I've only seen the photograph in the brochure,
of course, but it's plain as the nose on your
face.”
Emily
opened her mouth to speak, but even as she
did, the horn squawked again, and Davy pitched
down the steps, calling, “We'll see each other
in September. Good luck at the company” he
shouted up. She heard the outer door click
firmly behind him, and, as she crossed to
the window, saw the red van pull away into
the morning traffic. The name emblazoned on
its side read: Xpress Removals. No mention
of a company.
Well,
what was that about, she wondered, picking
up her coat and bags and making for the hall.
Nice if she did have the offer of a job waiting
for her at home, she mused smiling. She had
applied, in a rather half-hearted way, to
the various corporations that had set up stalls
in the university as graduation time drew
near. For a month her flat had been full of
forms as she and her flatmates struggled to
provide glowing assessments of themselves
in one hundred words or less, but this effort
had not, so far, reaped any reward, and, secretly,
she was relived that no bland organisation
had decided that she had the qualities, that
would make her an ideal addition to their
nameless operations carried out, she imagined,
in a rabbit warren of partitioned, matchbox
spaces.
Obedient
to her landlord's wishes she left the keys
on the floor inside the door, and shut the
door for the last time. Its final click drove
the memory of Davy from her mind as she felt
time roll slowly over like the slow tumbling
of a lock, and the past swing slowly closed
on her years of university with a quiet, firm
thunk.
Standing
on the curb under the shifting dapples of
soft spring leaves she hailed a taxi to take
her to the airport. As she settled back on
the squeaking black seats she watched, in
another fit of melancholy, the slow unwinding
of familiar streets; the reversal of the journey
she had made frequently over four years from
the airport to the university quarter. I'll
be coming back, she promised the tall, formidable
buildings, their various statues bent double
under the weight of door mantles, or poised
at the corners, holding various symbols aloft.
Frozen there above street level, they seemed
aloof from the rapid passing of time, guaranteed
to remain looking down over the city as it
shifted and changed. She got the impression
that they would not miss her, although it
often seemed to her that she was one of few
people who had looked up, noting their silent
presence as she carried about her daily life.
As
they swooped onto the flyway, and sailed over
the road beneath, crammed with the morning's
traffic into the city, she withdrew her gaze
from the buildings outside, and noticed the
taxi driver staring at her in the rear-view
mirror, a peculiar expression on his face,
an expression almost, of recognition. As she
met his eyes they shifted away quickly, and
she sat back, puzzled. The driver began to
sing along to the radio, nonchalantly, but
she eyed the back of his head suspiciously.
The
journey was short, and soon the taxi pulled
up in from of the departures door. The driver
stepped out of the car as she pulled her bags
out, but when she handed him a note, he brushed
it away with a flapping gesture, smiling nervously.
“Pleasure,
pleasure” he muttered. “Happy to help someone
from the company.” He stopped, flashing a
quick look at her under his eyebrows, “I didn't
realise…” he began, and then stopped again,
diving back suddenly into the taxi. It pulled
away quickly, leaving Emily staring after
it incredulously.
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